Calmer...to a degree.

Thank you so much to those of you who commented on my last post. Sometimes it's just knowing that people are out there that can stop you from giving up and giving in completely, and you were all lovely. Thank you.

I'm a little calmer today... at least until I let myself think.
Actually, this evening breathing is slightly easier, and I'm so happy about that. I'm still struggling with the thought that I might be stuck fighting to breathe for any longer...to be honest when I woke up this morning and realised that I was still here and still having trouble, I had some very dark thoughts indeed.
But the little things, as always, have helped: Dad arrived this morning bearing gifts of Ribena and dvds. I am now the proud owner of a platinum edition Disney DVD of 101 Dalmations :) It's funny, plonk me in front of a Disney selection and 101 Dalmations would have been low on my list to pick, but I've watched it twice this afternoon and really enjoyed it- made me want to get a dalmatian doggy and call her Perdita.


When I was watching it, the computer went a bit crazy...one of the many programs that popped up was a webcam program. Now, I hadn't even noticed that this laptop HAD a built-in webcam (observant, yes), or i would have taken a photo a few days ago to give you all a laugh at my hamster chops/moon face! But all the same, I thought I'd give you all a (not-so-)flattering peek into my world.

(the face is still slightly puffy)
My teddy is called Honey, he has been with me since one of my first visits to this hospital. We spotted an army of him in various sizes sitting in Smiths on the way in, and when I came round from my colonoscopy (fun!) he was sitting by my bed. Seven or eight years makes him quite a loyal friend i think, don't you? Especially considering all the tears he's dried! :)

Lastly a (hugely inadequate) thankyou to Victoria and Clare, both of whom I received packages from this week. Tori sent cupcakes and a cute soft toy dog, and Clare sent a box of special-ness that made me smile all day. It was super thoughtful. I'm so proud to call such lovely and generous people my friends. A lot of love to you two! ♥

Steroids taste FOUL.

I just tried to take my tablets and had real difficulty due to the fact that I have been coughing ALLL night, and I mean a cough for every 5 seconds, and my throat has become swollen and raw. Ended up gagging on the prednislone: it's not coated, and tastes HORRENDOUS. Any suggestions for removing the taste from my mouth? I'm sitting here squirming!

The past few days I have just been so desperate to get home and DO stuff. Especially creative-type stuff: my brain is over flowing with ideas and designs and techniques I want to try out! Once I do get back I'm probably going to make a crafty blog and separate my babble out a bit. I've recently acquired some beady followers (thanks guys!) but I don't know how boring or not they find my health complaints?! I don't know, maybe it's nice to have a bit of variety and I should keep it all together. But then if I manage to set up a shop and start selling my designs then it's not going to look too great for my jewellery posts to be mixed in with lung function news or rumbles about loneliness in hospital! Any thoughts here?

I'm looking forward to getting hold of my camera and posting a nice photo-heavy blog too! I know there will be some of Portugal, some of some jewellery bits, some "haul" type shots of the clothes and craft shopping I've been doing, and maybe an outfit or two? And I'm determined to have a bbq and catch up with some real people as soon as possible once I'm back on the rock so hopefully friends, summer dresses and Pimms will be swirled into the photo mix.



I think I fell asleep when I saw this in the cinema with my little cousins, so I'm excited that I am now the proud owner of a copy on Disney DVD. Though to be honest the second I stop concentrating my eyes are closing today, because of this damn cough last night! So it might take a few watches before I manage to get the entire story :)

There wasn't really much of a point to this blog, apologies for that.
Ooooh, are any of you lovelies able to knit or crochet?
As you might know they are some of the things I want to learn! And I was wondering if anyone could give any "starting out" advice. Not so much on actual technique, I have found myself a book which seems as though it will be quite useful, but more on say, what equipment is best to start with, etc? Needle sizes, wool weight, all that jazz? Ta in advance!