Thursday, December 30, 2010

i fucked up again

how much a of a self-involved, own-illness obsessed prick must i be to have taken SIX ENTIRE WEEKS (including two lame unanswered texts to him and an unmentioned xmas card) that the reason I was hearing nothing about Jonny, my strong CF boy i was in touch with the most, has now also been taken for the angels?
I couldnt even drag myself onto facebook and just check his profile, just in case, when i worried about getting no texts? fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.
What a sad sad thing. Breath Easy now Jonny, I loved you man and I wish I'd gotten through to leave my message to you sooner. Sorry honeybun
xxxx

9 comments:

  1. (((hugs))) You aren't selfish at all!! Breathe easy Jonny! xxx

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  2. don't feel like that hun, it's not your fault! *hugs* xx

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  3. It's definitely in no way your fault at all, you couldn't help it. I'm sorry he's gone though :( xxx

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  4. prayers to the lady please! going through a rough patch and could use some loving vibes right now from all you bloggers out there xxx

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  5. Sending you lots of positive vibes Lauren. You're a strong person and all our thoughts are with you. Keep fighting xxxx

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  6. Dear Laura
    You have no idea of how much of an inspiration you are to me. What a wonderful young lady you are and you are so much in my thoughts.
    With much love
    Val xx

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  7. I miss you so bloody much :(. I lit some candles on the day of your funeral. It was so peaceful and so simple and I hope you enjoyed the comedy as both my sister and I burnt ourselves. I can imagine you laughing at us. All I can say is that I know it's not goodbye, more 'see you later' because we'll keep your amazing spirit alive. Loveyou xxxxx

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